Stories of the Fallen Angel

2005-10-07T14:48:00.000+08:00

mugging

2005-10-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

i'm really deteorating. everything i does destroys me. myself. i look pale.. heavy eye bags. a person with no confidence... weak. y??

2005-10-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

it makes me feel as though i'm insignificant. i know. i am. because there was never the likes of me in your heart. well. i managed to put everything down already. i don't want to love. its tiring. i need to get my future right. go back onto the right path. shall not stray. ever again. i should really give her a break. don't want to be insignificant in someone's life again. i'm a pest. rodent. filth. nobody cares.

2005-10-04T23:02:00.000+08:00

yeah.... chalet was fun. yep.... met ting alvin adn ron on mon afternoon. at east coast checked in the chalet... yp.. got some stuff rite. then came jw and dan.... played cards. slacked inside awhile... erms. den tess and pf came.... started bbq... blah blah.. den junting came... so did the booze. thats the time i starting drinking. erms den came sj and jin. den amzar hafiz helmi zaini desmond. ea.. qwuite fun.. by the time i reached my fourth cup. i started crapping.. couldnt remember much of the details tho... den ulric and clement and jon came.. they left quite fast after eating tho.... during that time i was seriuosly drunk... couldnt dtop crapping... so did some of the guys in the room. all the drunk farks.. well. we're 17. yep. den ting left 1st.. den hafiz helmi desmond left.. erms after that cut cake for jw and sj bdae...there was a cake fight.. lucky i escaped it.. almost everyone kana.... lols. i was dead drunk by then seriously i couldnt remember much of those.. till i realised i took a video clip of it. when i search my fone in the morn... erms.. den after that many left... wads left in the room till the next morn was. me , alvin , ron , tess, pf, zaini, daniel, jw. we did a massive cleanup of the room. cox of the cake throwing and all the crap and outside the chalet as well. after that took turns bath ... after that played cards.. by that time most of the alcohol was outta my sysems.. quite awake den.. but my head was farking pain.. arghh.... erms. couldnt slp the whole nite... yea. den abt 3.30am tess, me , pf, dan, zaini and jw, left the 2 other pigs in the rooms. lazy asses...we did some stupid stuff like crawled over the gates... wib the camera there. hu cares... den went to the stone thingy at the beach.. sat there wanting to wait for the sunrise.... but abt 4 plus it started rainng farking heavy.. we ran all the wae back.. climbed the bloody gate again. quite dangerous slippery.. dun try this ever.. pls. erms ran back to the room drenched.. yep somore go aircon.. woo.. song. yea.. dried ourselves.. den crapped in the room... i was farking hungry by then.. cox i realised i drank soo much i forgot to eat. i ate a total of 1 hotdog, 2 crabsticks and 1 chic wing. pathetic.. was damn hungry... but we crapped in the room half dazed.. till bout 6 am.. lidat... some of us keep waking up walk here and there... tess. woke 1st.. she went to the beach herself... den the rest woke up abt 8 lidat.. started bathing.... den checked out of the room after that... erms.. went for breakfast at this indian bloody fark up restaurant. food was like shit... den the rest went to mac. after the indian shit food.. slacked there till abt 1.. took the shuttle bus to dhoby.... alvin and daniel left 1st... den the rest we walked at ps till abt 2.30pm pf wanted to set off to her work at woodlands.. zaini went off as well.. i ,jw, ron and tess. stayed at ps till tess went to work.... she was dead tired too.. ke lian.. kana woken up by me when we slack at bk... sorry =p.. erms den we went home.. after i reached home.. bathed .. eat.. den changed and went out again abt 6 lidat.. went to meet my classmates for dinner... den walk at suntec till abt 9.30... den went home... dead tired.. goin to slp now... bye.. zZzZZ

2005-10-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

tml's chalet. yea. erms still looking for black trash bags tho... anyone have it??

2005-10-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

yeah. 2 more daes to the chalet.. wee. hahas. was browsing thru some bb web stuffs jux now... just thought of the past 4 yrs i was in it.. life was tough. busy yep. but loads of fun too. more importantly i made many friends in there. glad i joined it in sec 1. =) hmmms. i looking for black trash bags for the chalet... anybody happen to have it?? i lazy buy lar.... =P

2005-09-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

yeah. went tuh ps to meet pam , dee, angela and fiona for movie at 2 plus 2dae. went to watch the longest yard. nice show.... after that. went chomp chomp so long nv been there. yep. went there to eat.. den went to slack at coffee bean till 10pm lidaat bah... yep. erms. thats all. been preparing some chalet things tho yea.... oh yar. o's coming.i hate to sae it for the 2nd yr running. but i tink i really no hope le. i give up.

2005-09-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

hmmms. i nearly die can.. wth. okaes. my last post putted that i tried to color my hair white rite. but it turned pink. well 2dae. i tried for the 3rd time. and u noe wad happen??? omg. the color became abit white yea. but.. still left a bit pinkish and u noe wad. my hair started dropping after i wash.. th.. i nearly cry can.. omg. sad sia. see those hair died and fall in front of my face.... lucky. only the fringe there.. stil hab some white color de.....erghs. and yea. got 2 B.U.M equipment boxers and 3 B.U.M equipment ankle socks as well. yea and 5 hush puppies underwear. yep. thats all.

2005-09-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

yeps. tried tuh color muh hair to white 2dae.. 2nd time le.. still no luck it turned more pinkish 2dae... well. maybe i'm jux fated wib pink. yea. i goin tuh get muh pink pmk tee and a basketball shoe. wear many many baller id on muh hand.... go arcade play.. yeah.!!! i goin get a gf wib typical lian hairstyle . and shou qian shou walk down heartland mall sit kopitiam. wooohooo. pure STness.. love it. oh yar. i wanna forget muh past so i dun put achives on this blog. and i only show 1 post at time until muh past ish completely forgotten. start anew. fresh.

2005-09-23T12:18:00.000+08:00

simply. at peace. jux nid tuh study now. okaes. no nid love tuh survive.be loved not love

2005-09-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

simply too happy can. i got everything i ever wanted. at least for now. yep and met the gurl of muh dreams. so in love. =)

2005-09-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

nothing else matters.ur smile is in muh heart forever. =) yeahs.

oh yar. i got muh 7610 as well. i jux simply too happy.

2005-09-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

worked at cp 2dae. the place was the centre of muh activities the past week. missed that place so muchie. mango milk ice. so nice!!! yoshinoya.. omg.. misses. everything. erghs. 100 loves at 1st sight & 99 true loves

2005-09-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

hmms, went to meet selva thingy yest. altho i was damn shagged, but met many ppl there.. jun ting, selva, anthony tang, yi jin, sj, amzar, hafiz, ali, ulric, clem, jon, alvin, tess, pf, ismail, sayufi, zaini.. maybe left out some cant remeber all. but the 2 teacher treat us all so gd.. many many things eat. hmmm sat there till abt 11 plus ba. den went home..... yep. did some baddy stuff yest tho. dun think she was too happy wib me. hmms. sads. regrets.

2005-08-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

hmms. i jux too happy everything's so fun and nice.... woohoo. attachment's nt bad... yeah. hmms. the past few daes. ok the significant events.. went to steambaot n bbq at marina bay. with tess and co. nice!! last min thing tho. was supposed to be chomping. but. that fone call. but nice..... yeah. so fun. its alwaes fun wib them fun fun fun and loads of smiles. yeahhhh.. erms. wad else significant. been downing town and bugis all this tho. gai-ing wib my claxmates and all. .. studying wib tess.... studying wib my claxmates oso. and yar. exams over. expecting a sub paper for bio tho. nvm. wth. pure happiness. hu cares. yea. been lan gaming almost every dae at thomson wib ulric and co. ... MONSTER KILL. nv reached there many times tho KILLING SPREE at most.. hmms. mux improve. yea o's coming as well. yippie. sadded. haben studied yet. okaes. oh yar. dee is stuck wib me for 3 weeks. suffers. hahax. jkjk. yea. some other ppl stuck wib me at sgh oso. suffers wooohoooo. i haben seen many ppl for soo long. aniwaes. all hab new frens. yea. the ups and downs of my life.

2005-08-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

the day u came into muh life. everything brightens up. the day u left. it was still brightly lit. it wasnt the love. it was u. u was gone. but i remained happy. cox u r happy.

2005-08-17T19:30:00.000+08:00

weets. i'm jux so happy. yeah. i've got everything i wants. yeaps.

2005-08-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

i saw her that dae. my heart nearly fell out man. she became so hot. jux so hot. slurps.

2005-08-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

hmms so long nv blog hahax. yeahs. lols. everything's so fun and nice. yeah. school's fun.. but my 9 weeks hols start tml. yeahs. weee. watched 3 movies last week. omg. lols. seven swords , the maid , charlie and the chocolate factory. hahax. damn ex sia all the ticks. yep. everything's jux great. i'm happier then i expected .yeas. but i feels that i lost some friends tho. some so obviously dont even wana be friends (like that 1 dat dae. she suck. ) hmms. some dont want to talk at all. others like hp spoil lidat. msg duno how to reply de. lol. u noe. there are some ppl in this world which u msg them ish like throwing 5 cents into the wishing well. cox i hab to wish that they will reply. wells. sad fark i am. anyways. so many ppl long time i no see liao. yeaps. doubt they want see me oso. i'm so ugly. who the fuck wants tuh make friend wib a ugly nurse. thats y some just disappears .shitty. i noe y. who bothers. but i got new friends. people who rawks. yep some old friends as well. tp ppl mostly yep. tp rawks too. oei. yeaps. cinemas is nice. nv had u inside wib me tho. but nice.

2005-08-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

hmms went to watch the fireworks 2dae. u noe.. last yr.. i wished u were there. this yr i wished u were there too. u wasnt in both. i suck.

2005-08-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

all i can sae ish that i miss u. but i nv does anything. i dare not. i fear. i scare. i failed. i'm useless. u will never love me. i will go on but wib eu. forever in my heart.

2005-07-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

weeee............so longs nv blogs. yea.. hahax. hmm. was fine this few daes.. yep. fun too... school's fun. yea..... the o's ish coming so ish the bloody attachment n the poly exams yep. but i'm happy. lalalala... kaes. hmms. dun tinks u even wants to talk to me.. aniwaes. hu cares. slurps. lick.

2005-07-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

here's a msg to the 2 gers reading my blog now. hey. u 2 suck.

2005-07-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

hmms. my com ish finally okaes. =) u noe. i jux get that feeling that u donts evens wants to be friends with me anymore. no matter how i wish not to try to leave u alone. my mind jux wonders. nvm i'll try if thats the feelings i gets.

2005-07-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

yeah... 2dae...... finished sch at 1.... den went to orchard to meet tess. lolx... erm... den went far east 1st.. she wan see shoe.. den went cine to buy our tickets.. for the movie... den the ronald called.( extra) he wanted to watch as well. so we bought 3 ticks for be with you. den went taka 1st.. go g2k. den went wisma. saw the shirley there. so qiao she's tess the pri skool classmate. oh well been bumping into her these few daes. erm den we went back cine. met ron there. den went tot watch the movie. the show was nice yea. cant believe i went to watch a love story and ron came extra. no lah. haha jkjk... erm saw many ppl 2dae oso.. kkx.

2005-07-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

hmm 2dae... went plaza.. abt 2 plus lidat ba.. wib asley ulric n clem... pooled. 1st... den went dota... omg.. dota-ed 3 daes in a row... den... went to eat.. den asley go 11st.. den i ulric n clem went dhoby x square.. x box-ed there for 1 hr plus ba.. den went home.. kkx... OWNING

2005-07-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

woot. 2dae.. erm.. worked..den after worked went for lan gamin.. omg.. i'm a computer freak nows... dotas... cs... argh..... MONSTER KILL.

2005-07-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

haben been blogging for quite long.. lazy lar.... siner man.. so many things hab happen. i suddenly became like somebody else sia....erm. kaes lazy to tok bout the past few daes... sae bout 2dae ba.. 2dae.. went to sch.... den after that went bugis..... wib dee, angela they all. den pangsehs themm den went to plaza meet asley, wilson, wei lun, jie hui, louis, nazhar and eddie (nv really seen this 2 b4). tink thats their name.. dota-ed.. at plaza 1st.. den went kovan. dota-ed there again... den eat tau hua... en went back plaza.. kkx. lazy to sae le.. after that went home thats all. well they are nice ppl.....

2005-07-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

"u hab unknowingly fallen for her" thats wads everyones says now. i jux wanna sae. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

2005-07-02T13:07:00.000+08:00

i hab no frens now. how sad can that be. i see 1 by 1 leaving. not leaving for other places. but leaving me alone. sadness.

2005-06-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

i bet u'll be happy hearing this.

i hAb NEveR LovED eu.

2005-06-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

hmm. went to sch 1st 2dae..... erm do proj. den went out wib dee n angela.. went to dhoby watch alot like love... wth.. cant believe i actually go watch a love story in a cinema............................. den went pool after that... den went eat... den went to coffee bean... slack there until 10pm ba.. den went home. erm. thats all.

seriously. i duno wads goin on. haixx.

2005-06-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm... 2dae. met dee n angela at city hall. went to esplanade study... wells. wasnt able to study tho.... erm... den went to marina square eat. den... angela went back to sch for her fencing thingy.. i n dee went funan 1st... after that went dhoby.. wanted to pool. but too many ppl. sians.. erm... den leh. played arcade instead.. hahax. erm den went ps.. den went home. oh yar. 2dae i saw this chinese writing thingy.. damn nice.. i saved it into my fone wahahahax.. kkx. sians. wan go bath liao.. bibi.

2005-06-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

you are all i ever wanted.you are all i ever loved.you are all i never got.its you i will never understand

2005-06-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

0.o went to bedok 2dae. met dee n ramizah there.... den went to get our jabs. ouch. hhaax. erm. den went to changi airport. for god noes wad. go there eat. den sit the sky train to n fro duno how many times.. lolx. den they went home. i went to j8. find phyllicia. hahax. jk. erm. went there get my pay. erms. den went home. lazy to wait for her finish work. jkjk.

2005-06-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

hees. 2dae went to sch for project thingy. went to the library there. met the group members. erm. i slept for almost half the time there. cox there wasnt anything to dooooooooooooo. lolx. kaes. sians. humans comes in pairs. dun u all agree??. i guess i'm the only 1 alone.

2005-06-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

kaes. 2daew ent to study wib tess at her house there the mac. den abt 7.30 lidat went to eat den went home le... kkx. =)

'gives up'

2005-06-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. wth. so happy.=) duno y oso. haaha. everyone says the same thing. wells. there are many trees. =).

2005-06-18T13:54:00.000+08:00

sory. if i've been crappy for the past few days. i dont noe y oso. wells. smiles.

i'm better off on my own.

2005-06-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

hmm. 2dae. went to the bbq!!!!!!!!!! hahax. okaes. abt 2 pm lidat. i left my house for bedok. den met dee n angela there. den took cab to east coast. den. at there . met the other ppl. lolx. den later on adelin, siling, jenny th rest came. hui wen oso. eat. vblah blah. den the prcs came at nite. so late. wells. okaes. den erm play there until abt 12 ba den took cab home wib dee. angela n pam took their own cabs all diff place mah. okaes.

hmm. many ppl says the saem thing. ' u tried everything. but it doesnt work. have u tried letting her go??'. wells. =)

2005-06-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

seriuosly i dun think anyone even bothers to enter my blog now. =( sad. well. hu cares. erms. jux wans to say that. sorry. i will never be able to love you. cox my heart ish somewhere else. i suggests that things shd be clear. dun wan things to go too deep. =) aniwaes. keep smiling.

okaes. other topics. tml ish the class bbq hahax. excited. lolx. =) planned for soo long tml ish the dae!!!!!!!!!!! hopes its gonna be fun.

and yar. tells everyone that posted me msgs on friendster. hi. but i cant reveal my hp no. yar.... =P.

argh!! fat sia. aniwaes. this pic cute mah??

2005-06-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm i noe now tho. its the same cycle again. isnt it... its the same last time..

2005-06-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

2dae. stayed at home for almost the whole dae... den went to bishan at 7pm lidat. met jing for dinner. den now cames home. kaes. tml n fri fully booked for loads of fun=)

2005-06-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm... 2dae. quite a long dae. kaes. met dee at sgoon int at 1030am. den we went down city hall to meet ramizah. den went bedok. den. met angela at bedok. watned to go for the jab. but fug sia they sae nid the medical report. but its at sch. shiets... wth. den dee ramizah n angela went back to sch 1st. i din go yet. i went bishan to meet cindy. cox she ask me go buy her uniform wib her. lolx. saw kenrick there. nt bad sia. they can get to choose wad color n pattern of uniform they wants to wear. lolx. i din wiat for cindy till she buys ba. cox i needed to rush back to sch. dee they all there. so i kind of pang seh her there. paiseh sia. hahax. den i went back sch. den there dee they all sae that the sch sae 3 daes later den can get the report. wth.. wells. den dee n angela got warning letters for their hair wen they went to tok to the director funny story. i wasnt there. hahax. den at sch i went to cheers wib jing for awhile den she wents to the foreign bodies thing. den i went up to play cards wib dee they all. erm den went home abt 6 plus ba. wells the foreign bodies thingy i saw many ppl looking outside. i oso went there to see. nt nice de. yucks. hahax.jkjk. den i came home 1st. abt 9.30 went 682 to meet jing for dinner. soo late lucky i din wait at sch. den went pasar malam .. den went home. erm thats it for 2dae.hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. shagged.

seriously i noe i'm a nuisance, i'll stop. i'm scaring u. i noe. silence.~~~

2005-06-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmmmmmm. 2dae. stayed at home the whole dae. well wad a wae to spend the 1st day of my hols. but everybody got sch nobody wans to go out wib me. sians.

heres my horoscope fr teenage mag.
'the time has finally come to take a good look at your relationship. Are you really in love or do you find yourself hanging onto your partner just so you can say you are attached! Its never a good idea to hang on without feeling involved'

hmm. aries. for the mth june.

2005-06-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

lolx. 2dae. went bugis. met jing. n u noe hor. somebody made me wait for 40 mins. duno hu. the 1 2dae red face de lor. lolx her face damn funni 2dae everytime i look at it i cant stop luffing. sooo red. hahaahax. den came home after that... and the ron hor. gave me a bloody scare jux now... wth.

hmmmmmm. wads wrong. the silence ish killing me.

2005-06-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

worked 2daes. wells. nice. phyllicia's nice. crapped alot wib her 2dae. wells. fun oso. bio-ed the perfume salesgirls. omg. i'm so lalala.. hahax. den i n jingfu. sat there whole day jux thinking of ways to get those gers no. =p.

wells. yest someone told me that i'm blocking others cox of HER. i mean wads wrong. cant i jux focus on 1 person. i block the others cannot isit.

2005-06-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

okaes. heres 2dae. went to sch at 11. den it finishes at 12. den went to the sports halls. play cards.. same as yest. but 2dae i was damn depressed. they noticed it too. they were nice. doing things jux to make me cheer up. asking how i was. am i ok.. blah blah. nice ppl. den played there until 4 lidat. den went to the dicusssion rm den play cards again. lolx i play until 6 lidat ba. they continued till 8. cox i went chomp chomp 1st. met jing , ron alvin,daniel, ulric, jon, clem , ghim hock and li hui. after eat. alvin dan ron jing came my house. watch tv... after that send them to the bus stop den went home. now jux came back. damns.

someone told me this..' u cannot judge a ger whether she's pretty when she goes out. its best to see her when she jux wake up. if she looks pretty when she jux wakes up. she's the best.'

meaningful rite.

2005-06-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

wells. 2dae was............................ went tuh sch in the morn. at 9. den 10 am finish sch le. went to the sports hall there 1st. den went library awhile do project thingy. den at 12pm everything was finished. den went back to sports hall. there hab dee, pam, angela, ramizah,and practically half my claxx. lazy to mention all. den played cards there. den went the cca thingy... den watched nyp. den den mac to play cards. until 7pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!! spend soo much time at sch. god noes doin wad. well.

i really dont noe wad the hell am i doin........ all the nonsense. wad for??????????????????? jux dun wan tok abt some things now. i'm really shagged. honestly. i'm jux an empty shell now. and i think i shd stop b4 i get carried awae. doin stupid thing for no reason. . hu bothers. nobody cares. i'm sad. hurt. wadever. i'm going awae fr everything now. i may be leaving nyp soon. those frens i made there. u all will alwaes remain in me. i'll have lunches. card games. hide n seek anything ....... when i comes back next yr. as for now. i duno wad tuh do. nt goin to waste time anymore. and i'm thinking of closin this blog. blogs. isnt it all only for show?? haben u all realise that i seldom type much in my blog now?? wads the purpose?? to show off?? the reason y many pour their sorrows here ish bcox they wan the person hu they are feeling sad abt. the ppl hu hurt them to read. so as to see a certain ray of hope. the fakeness. i'm part of it. wads the use of me writing loads of crap. for?? so what if the msg that i write for the person hu ish the msg directed to reads? ?? wads will she doo??? wad for? i ask. i'm sad. hu cares.

i'm jux an empty shell with nobody. jux drifting doing nonsense. i give up.

2005-06-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

it was such a happy dae 2dae. den everything jux crashes. but my heart jux couldnt shatter. cox it hasnt been mended back yets. since last yr. wells. so i'm supposed to be happy rite. in a sense. wells. i'm a messed up kid. haben really sorted out my stuffs yet. all the lies. i cant take. bye.

2005-06-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

jux came bac. hahax. kaes. here's 2dae. went to sch at 5 2dae for exams. den finish at 6. den tess, pf, dan and alvin waited for me outside my lect theature. they very gd hor. come my sch wait for me. den we went orchard. went to lido. actaully wanted to watch movie. but alot shows tml den release. so we ate at lido there lor..................... daniel's bdae.. after eating....... sooooo fuuuuuuuuullllllllllll. den we took a bus to dhoby. went ssc there pp play pool. fr 8 play until 10 plus ba. den at pp there very funi. took sooo long jux to take 1 pic wib tess. hahax. i played like shiet oso. 2dae. fuggy. ergh!! but fun. its alwaes nice hanging out wib them. =)

shitty isnt it. waits n waits.

2005-06-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

sch starts at 5 2dae. wells. the past 2 daes ish like damn sian. dun tell u all y. ware r eu??

2005-06-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmmmmm. 2dae. went tuh sch in the morn. it was lecture 1st. wells. jux pure sianness. so i took out my maths tution hmwk n did it in the lect. everyone was like listening to the cher in front i was like my table was filled wib worksheets n my calculator. den i was stuck wib my sums. luckily huiwen was sitting beside me she saw me duno how do. den she take my bk n try doo. omg. u noe how fast she did it???? she was like damn fast sia. wah lau. she's a malaysian. soooo smart sia. envy. den after sch went tuh orchard wib dee, angela n ramizah. supposed to get the jab. but... tooo ex!!!! fugging hell y ish the jab too ex. aniwaes after that they left. den i went to meet tess at somerset mrt. den went to starbucks at paragon there. i went there doo my maths again!! wells. she's nice. pei me go there den see me doo maths. den drink ice blended cocoa. nt really nice. erm. after that. i went home. den she go find her fren. cox i got tuition mah.. i'm jux damn guai rite. study study study. oh well tml there's test gonna study now.

2005-06-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

well. 2dae... woked up at 4.30. cox hab to follow my mom to send my sis to m'sia. den came home abt 6 plus lidat. den baths. den go sk meet ting go sch. erm.. den at sch. she went tuh mac. she's alwaes goin there. her claxmates jux loves the place. well me too!!. erm i went to meet dee, angela , ramizah n pam at the atm in the shopping arcade. den went to get our mantoux test thingy checked. well i passed. i dun nid jab again. hahax. den after that met jenny , xue ling n jaslyn at the mantoux thingy oso. den we all plus dee angela ramizah n pam went tuh ps to watch movie half of us watched monster in law n the other half watch amitty ville. i watch monster in law. regretted. shd hab watch amitty instead. i nearly slept. well. its a gurl's show. all the love love. there wasnt even a fighting scene. shiets den after sch 2dae. met jing den went tuh bugis to meet alvin, pf n tess. went tuh buy daniel's prezzie. den walked ard bugis awhile. den went tuh hgg there. eat vege food. den walked to 682 there eat dessert. den each of us went home. well. wed goin out wib them again. they alwaes rawk yar. ting oso. u rawks. n the ppl fr the bitch club, com die club, prc club n bastard club oso.

2005-06-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

kaes. yest. went tuh sentosa there. go there play lor. wib last yr 4e7 ppl. erm lazy to type lar. maybe 2nite den i type again. see if maybe u all go ting blog see if got write bas. abt yest thingy..

2005-06-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i guess i haben really intro-ed my poly frens yet. well. will find sometime to doo soo. kaes. theres this really nice cute ger. her eyes. ish really cute. those kind that will melt ur heart instantly. well. she's funny oso. tap my shoulder den act she nv tap lidat. she's nice.

2005-06-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

ok. been awhile since i blog long post. 2dae's will be a little longer ok. . erm. 2dae. went tuh sch as usaul. stupid. go sch nv attend anything jux go gym nias. hhheeeehhheeeeeeee. dun tell u all how i did that. well. gym was nice. erm. so was the chicken rice at the canteen. was fun. well. saw denise n dominic at the lect theature there. they very funi. nice couple. made for each other. well. after hearing wad they saes. i thught of sum stuff. shd i sae byebye to nyp???? haix. well. i cant bear to leave the ppl there. sighs. oh well. leave that for later. theres many shows i wanna watch. at the cinemas. well. i'm free fr 12 to 5 tml hu wan to gai gai wib me??? =) erm wad else. leh. well i'm messed up shits. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. wells. dun tink theres anything else. love.i.wants.it.can?

2005-05-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

i'm happy. thats it. my life ish contented.

2005-05-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

my new set of dreams or rather aims.

-get my 1st car by 21.
-get married at 28.
-pass my olevels.
-go better course in poly.

2005-05-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

hab to get out fast. b4 me hearts gets shattered again. well. erm. worked 2dae.. its jux so fuggly sian. well after this tue's exams. i can forsee lotsa fun. beach!!. yea. looking forward to all the stuff tho. my claxx bbq. the 4e7 thingy. the sentosa thingy.the gai gai thingy wib BLEH. the laser show(this one's still open. who wants tuh go wib me??). hahax. i still hab many daes empty. well. use those to study ba.

2005-05-27T17:25:00.000+08:00

one by one. u all are drifting away. i'm alone. more than ever.

2005-05-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

well. i passed my prac exams 2dae. hahax.

hi jing. welcome to my blog after many years.

2005-05-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

well. 2dae was nice. got 3 hr break , initially we planned to study at the SEP but ended up playing games there. for 3 hrs...lolx. fun. and i got my ezlink le. hahax. cheaper fares... lol

2005-05-24T18:48:00.000+08:00

hees. i was punked 2dae.. well. my retribution. cox i punked others 1st.. kkx. erm. saw this really nice ger.. cute.

2005-05-24T09:50:00.000+08:00

well... now in sch com lab.... hahax. jux so sian... lol. nuthing doo. so came here blog.. okaes. nothing much to sae tho... hahax.

i'm not sure....

2005-05-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

hei. 2dae... went out ard 3. went to bugis. wib valvin, ulric , clem , jon n jw. went there buy bag 1st.. but i din buy...... den went to get my rebirth tee.. shit. i'm addicted... den went to play cs... yest oso. played cs.. i'm getting more n more pro. hahax. kkx. aniwaes. i'm sick.. shit. hate being sick.

2005-05-22T13:35:00.000+08:00

its jux so sian... well. i noe its stupid to fall for someone the 2nd time. but wth. hmmm. who interested to go dinner wib me 2nite?. its jux damn sian. wanna get out. but i'm falling sick. shiet. y everyone's getting sick. no fun. oh well. many ppl can guess my nick yesterdae. no fun. all suddenly msg me say my 1 very easy guess. shiet. okaes. i'm lousy. alrite. well. back to the dinner thingy. who wants to go drop me a msg kaes. anybody. a gurl would be fine.

2005-05-21T13:52:00.000+08:00

i v e o l o u y v e o f r e r l i l t e h t d n e f o m i t e

figure this out. its for u.

2005-05-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

my view of a romantic relationship?.... sitting a a place wib the person u lub. my sweater on her. in the nite. with the wind so strong. 2 person. 1 heart. 2gether forever. my expectations are damn simple. well i'm simple minded.

2005-05-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

hmm...... 2dae. went to gym after sch.. join the member... wib pam , cyndee they all... erm... den go eat. now jux came back. well. wad i most afraid of ish happening. i'm now too in it to get out. tho i said i dun like the course. =(

2005-05-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

heees. okaes. here's 2dae. erm. schooled. well nice. did projects 2dae. practs. thats all

2005-05-18T20:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... 2dae shd blog a longer post. well. as usaul. went tuh school. 1st lab lessons.... after that was supposed to be socio.. but we pon.. hahax. nice to end up in the clax same as my 4e7. gd tho. fun. everyday's a nice day.well.. pon-ed cox we were damn hungry. so went to eat lor. den.. after that . went to the library to doo some project thingy. doo until 3 ba. den went for this cbl thingy... until 5 ba...... den went home le.. and yea. 2dae they all damn funny all keep taking my pic during lect. until the teacher come and ask. y.. all wan lendl's picture isit... hahax... funi sia they all. well. tml goin ask the mentor abt my change course thingy.. hope will success ba.. if it does i'll be really happy. and contented wib everything i hab. i hope there is a miracle.

i'm sorry. i miss you too much.

2005-05-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

well. 2dae soo fun.. 1stly... skipped bio.. den some of us sat outside the lect theature and sae ghost stories.. den came to some abt hide n seek.. den after 2 hr of ghost story.. we went to play hide n seek for 2 hr.. sooo funny sia.. so long nv hab such fun.. well... den jux nice ting finish her sch... hahax

2005-05-17T11:08:00.000+08:00

well... sad. the way i said gdbye. towards my new future.

2005-05-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

well. nuthing much tuh sae bout 2dae.. generally fine. studied at the canteen for quite a long time tho.

2005-05-16T11:29:00.000+08:00

hey.... yest..... went to town wib ting.... met her at sk 1st... den went dhoby there.... den cine... but the rebirth tshirt no hab my size... den went far east there to get my tshirt n sweater. den went home le.... ... erm. well. someones gonna whack me. so hu's gonna help?

2005-05-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

y is it so difficult. to jux find somebody that will truly love me.

2005-05-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

i choose to love you in silence. cox in silence nobody owns you but me. i tink this sentences really meaningful=)

2005-05-12T18:57:00.000+08:00

well.... schooled 2dae. sch's getting more n more fun everyday.. cox of everything.. but muh destination's still lies with changing my course=)

2005-05-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

well.. i would like to dedicate this post to someone who likes to diao. ok. theres this 'diao ' bastard.. hu whole dae diao diao diao nias..... he got a bloody farkup face. and he's the 1st on my fark off list. well.. he shd be proud....

2005-05-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

i seriously think i'm really lame.seriously. i think she hear my voice until very sian liao. i noe. i'm irritating. =P

2005-05-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

the cute face that will be stuck in my head forever....................... hmmm.. suddenly tot of this sentence...... well.. this few daes. generally boring..... well better daes r soon to be seen... well.. cant wait for the rest of the ppl to start sch in nyp hahax... den got more ppl pei me...=) now's so sian.. kaes. wads else to type leh..... duno leh... okaes.... u noe hor... in my sch rite... my fi\one ish alwaes ringing non stop and i'm alwaes on the fone... hence my claxmates alwaes sae me.... den.. wen i went for a movie wib them at orchard last week.. i was like saying hi to many ppl i noe that i came across while walking fr dhoby to fareast... seriously is like non stop lor.. saw many many ppl..... den now i'm being called ah beng at sch.... =P

2005-05-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

iwell..i kinda lost muh job..... dun hab to work fr next mth onwards...=)

2005-05-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

i'll do anything. for u.

2005-05-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... schooled 2dae.. after dat went for movie wib, pam , adelin, angela cyndee ,si ying and 1 more i forgot the name.... watched house of wax...... damn gore lor.... eeww... after that.. went ljs eat.... den went orchard walk walk.. saw many ppl i noe de.. hahax..... i was like hi, hi, hi.... the whole dae at orchard 2dae... cox saw many ppl... kaes.. thats all... tml i got work... j8.. hu wan come find me?

2005-05-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

well.... sorry if muh posts hab been a little short the past few weeks.... i'm jux shagged.... to tired by the time i get home.. well.. i'll write more when i regain back my energy...

2005-05-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... went out wib ting n ron 2dae... after sch....... went bugis there... den went orchard..... well..... damn shagged... tired........... haix..... stressed oso..... i jux cant think properly.... sorry. i hab to gib u up. for my studies.

2005-05-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

i miss the stars , the moon, ergh!! jux miss all those things...... so happy jux thinking abt it..

2005-05-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

i understand.

2005-05-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

well..... seriously..... i duno wad wrong with me.... i jux do not know..... what the hell am i doing all this for? seriously i duno. am i tired...... nt sure..... i'm shagged....... all this for nothing...

2005-05-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

'i'm sorry that i feel in love with you' isnt this a nice phrase....

2005-04-30T00:11:00.000+08:00

i tink i shd jux drop dead n die....

2005-04-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

well..... 2dae.. studied for my olevels maths... i swore i really did..... i absorbed everything she taught..... okaes... jux another prob..... i jux duno wads wrong.... everything jux dun feels the same as last time...... i hate it.

2005-04-27T21:57:00.001+08:00

blehxX....... 2dae...went to sch.. hahax...... the rest.. maybe u all can go ting blog see ba.. i lazy type... kaes.... well... the o's coming le.. omg.... can feel the stress all over ogain.. hahax.... shit... well... ok...

2005-04-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm how shd i start?.... 3 daes nv blog le.. hahax... kaes... start fr sat..... went to the chalet on sat.. at sentosa..... had a shock intitially when i reached there..... it was so small the room.. but very cozy.... hahax.. erm... the 1st dae... went to the beach awhile den went back to the chalet to bbq.... desmond, alvin , ulric ,suazana, pf, jw, zaini, clement , jonathan, wq, jun ting, ismail, daniel was there,........ den at nite tess came.. her bdae wad.. hahax... den some of them went home that nite... but we bbq until 3 am lidat ba...... den cleared the place awhile..... den went to the beach..... went there lie down on the sand see star...... tess , ulric, daniel pf, jw, alvin oso... erm... den lie there until sunrise ba.... nice... hahax..... by that time already 6 plus am le... den we went back to the chalet bath..... den eat breakfast... den went to the beach.. omg... at the baech for duno how many hrs... swimming.. tanning.. now i chao ta liao.. hahax....... but really really very fun... but very tiring.. din slp for 1 whole dae... hahax... den the 2nd nite jing came... but after goin to watch the laser show we went back to chalet take things den go home le... cox next dae got sch.. hahax... den the rest stay at chalet ba.. cox next morn then they check out... hahax... but next dae i after sch oso went there cox they still playing there.. lidat i 3 daes at sentosa sia... omg... so fun....... thanks for all the fun u guys.. hahahx... u all rawks..... kaes.. heres some pic i took at the sentosa....

omg.. look at the mess we made at the bbq......

tess n ulric bdae cake!!

the moonlight that nite..... nice!!

and... another person jux joined the club......

din noe y the charcoal turned out that color wen i took the pic....

the break of dawn... nice aint it,...

nice scenery hor...

the sky that dae... nice sia..

my slippers!! nice?

the last pic i took b4 i left the chalet.. cosy aint it.... haha

cute arent they?.. took this pic wen i went back on mon.. cox i missed the place..

and finally... my student card from nyp...... green.. omg..

2005-04-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

well... schooled 2dae...... =) busy sia... fone ring non stop 2dae......... well... nvm..... okaes... now jux came back.. damn tired.... well not convienint to sae the events of 2dae..... cox of some reasons.. hehe...

2005-04-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm... sch..... damn sian.... ZzZzZ................................. slurps...

2005-04-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

erm.... well....... went tuh sch 2dae at 12...... den finished at 12.40pm... wah lau.. 40 min nia leh....... den went down to j8.. but nv get pay yet... den wnet home.. den went out again.. to st... den now jux came home...

2005-04-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

hmm... 2dae at sch... better abit lar.... my claxmates nt bad... all very funny de.. like last time my 4e7 lidat...... walk here n dere slack...... relac.... hahax..... 2nd dae of slping...... cant carry on like this..... made up my mind... gonna do well for my modules this semester.. den find them to change course.. at the same time study my olevels..... hmph!!! my final decision... btw hu can help me wib bio?

2005-04-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

kaes..... heres my story 2dae.......... the 1st dae of sch!!! nothing to be excited abt tho.. morn.. went tuh jing house there... go sch wib jw n jing....... den went tuh sch... take bus 159....... this ish only the beginning... well.. den reach sch.. they went for their orientation... i went for my clax... blah blah... sian..... went for this 1 lecture... teleconference de....... wad did i do there?!! well... i slept........ when i woke up.. jux nice.. lecture end.... den break 1 hr........ okaes.... den went for this library orientation.... as usual.. i slept behind the com... zZzZ... sweet dweams..... kaes.... well.. den theres this thing which this ger asked me jux now.. that really struck me..... here's how it goes............................. " ger: hi.... y did u choose nursing?" me: cox my olevel cannot make it.." den she tells her fren..... " i knew it.. told u liao..." den she asks me again... " den y u dun wan retake ur o's?" i replied... "i'm retaking private....." she says.. "huh..... u no interest den y u wan join..." i replied... " i duno.."........................................................ well.. this has really struck me....... now i finally understood wad all my frens hab been trying to tell me after i got my postings...... have i made the rite choice? shd i turn back? am i destroying myself?..................................... honestly... i do not noe........ haix...